Just one year ago I was one of those people who avoided making eye contact or starting casual conversations with others. As a matter of fact, I would often be in stores and see one of those chatty people looking around for someone to talk to and think to myself, “please don’t talk to me”. Huh. Amazing what can change in a year. I am now one of those chatty people. (In commercial voice) “Please don’t hate me because I’m chatty.”
Not only am I one of those chatty people, but *gasp* I want hugs, too! Sometimes it crosses my mind what people might be thinking of me. I know first hand what some of those thoughts might be. So, it was kind of shocking today when I made a pretty obvious realization. Occasionally when I was avoiding those casual conversations back then someone would get through. They would ignore my obvious disdain for any kind of human contact and talk to me. Oh the horror. Why was I so oblivious to the fact that every time someone did this, I left the conversation in a much better mood? Smiles are contagious, joy is contagious. I couldn’t help but feel some of those happy emotions when these incredibly rude people decided to make me feel that way.
So, now, rather than wonder what people might be thinking of me, I shrug my shoulders and ignore my obvious rudeness at trying to make others feel loved. I hug them knowing that most of them, whether they want to or not, will leave me feeling better than they did at the beginning of our interaction. What a terrifically terrible person I am.
Please accept this blog as my virtual hug to you.