Day 250 – That Empty Feeling

3 HUGS, 2 children, 1 husband

Tonight was book club. I just couldn’t do it. Not around the holidays. Knowing that my son may have had a virus yesterday I couldn’t subject my friends to hugs just in case he had passed it on to me. Any other time of year, maybe. (sorry friends.) Just not this time of year.

I still went. I just kept my distance. I air hugged and let everyone know that I wanted to hug them. I thought that would be enough. I am surprised to find that it wasn’t. I walked out feeling very empty. Like maybe I forgot something. I sensed the familiar sting of tears behind my eyes. I pretended it was the cold wind on my face. In truth it was the emptiness I felt walking away from 7 beautiful friends without being able to show them how much they mean to me. I know they know. It shouldn’t have been so hard. I will see them all again in 6 weeks, probably sooner. That doesn’t change the fact that I missed an opportunity today.

Please accept this blog as my virtual hug to you.

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