31 days. 31 DAYS. Oh. My. Goodness. I have blogged and I have hugged for 11 months. Wow. Over this last month I am going to share a little about ways in which I have changed, my favorite moments, my least favorite moments, things that made me go hmmm… (the song just kinda popped in to my head) and the direction I plan on taking my blog after April 12, 2012.
I was thinking today about a very valuable lesson I have learned this year. Funny enough I wrote about it yesterday. Patience. Yesterday I wrote about it in terms of getting angry and frustrated with someone. There is also the patience needed when wanting something that may not be immediately available. Finally there is the patience required to allow our light to shine through. This was so difficult for me. See, I
am was a people pleaser. I needed to know that I was liked by everyone and if I felt I did or said something to offend someone I wanted to rectify it immediately. I would apologize for everything, even those things that had nothing to do with me. I didn’t have the patience to allow my own true light to shine. Ohhhh this was a hard one. But, when I finally allowed myself the luxury of patience I was astonished to find that life became easier. There were a lot fewer worries. In the end I found myself being liked by most everyone (that I know of). Even those that I thought I offended.
Now, I am not saying that I will always be liked by everyone. I understand this is just not the way of life. I just now accept that with patience everyone will see the true me. I no longer say what I think others want to hear. I no longer apologize for most anything (unless I feel I have completely wronged someone). I simply wait out the uncomfortable moments while settling in to the truth of who I am. Turns out I was worrying a whole lot over a whole lot of nothing. I am no longer a people pleaser, but find that people are pleased with me. Patience IS a virtue.
Please accept this blog as my virtual hug to you.