1 New Hug (new neighbor)
I think it’s time for one of my gratitude posts. I am grateful for the garage sale I held on Saturday and although I didn’t get a crazy amount of hugs (it felt a little awkward asking for hugs from people I was taking money from) I did get a new hug from a neighbor who came to introduce herself. Ha! I just realized something. Her husband met me when I was wearing bunny makeup (remember this?) and as soon as she introduced herself to me I lunged at her with a hug. They probably think I am C.R.A.Z.Y CRAZY. *shrugs shoulders*
Oh right, I went off on a tangent. Back to the gratitude post. Today I am grateful for the new leaves unfolding on my elephant ear plant as a reminder of new beginnings and the dying leaves as a reminder to let things go when the time has come. I am grateful for loose leaf tea whose aroma fills my home with comfort and peace. Whose taste permeates my mouth with all of the wonderful flavors it holds. I am grateful for the sweet moments it allows me to enjoy with 5 year old.
I never thought that I would one day be able to say this, but I am grateful for the experience of being diagnosed with MS. I am facing a new medical dilemma which will probably be nothing serious (possibly a hiatal hernia), but I need an ultrasound on Wednesday to be sure. My go to emotion is to completely freak out and worry obsessively until the waiting is over and a diagnosis is given. My excuse for this kind of behavior is, “well, it just reminds me too much of how terrifying it was to receive my MS diagnosis.” Until today. Because of my hug journey and the growth that I have done over the past year today I was able to say, “What is the worst that could happen?” I had an open and honest discussion with myself over the worst case scenarios and all of them played out the same. I would deal. I was able to deal with the MS diagnosis and I believe that I am healthier today than I was back in high school because of it. Whatever the outcome, I will deal. I will move on. It will become just another thing that once happened to me. I know this because being diagnosed with MS is just a thing that once happened to me and for that I am grateful.
Please accept this blog as my virtual hug to you.