I am struggling writing tonight’s blog. Perhaps it is the alcohol that has done me in. Perhaps it is how late I have chosen to write it. Perhaps it is the sad events in today’s news (Gunman opens fire at theatre in Colorado) Perhaps it is feeling like I am losing a bit of my message with each radio interview. Don’t get me wrong, I love having the opportunity to share my message with as many people as possible, it’s just I feel as though I am talking too much about my message as opposed to living my message. Yes, I am still hugging but I don’t know, I just wonder if I am connecting with others enough.
Most importantly with my family. My oldest son is getting ready for kindergarten. We spent an amazing day together yesterday just me and him. He is the gentlest of souls but lately he has had quite a mean, defiant streak. I thought it was just going to kindergarten that had him uneasy. So, we spent the day doing everything he wanted to do. Everything was perfect. Then, today he was back to that mean kid again. I was just so frustrated. What was I doing wrong? Why did he want to hurt me? (see how this all goes back to me?) Finally, after leaving a shopping mall which involved a whole lot of mean words (from him) and threats (from me) I stopped him at the side of our truck, got down to his level, sat him on my knee and hugged him. He pushed and struggled at first, then while still complaining and arguing, settled in to my hug. I felt his entire body relax first then his words subsided. After holding him about a minute I looked at him and said, “I am not sure what is going on, but no matter what I love you with all my heart and soul.” To which he replied, “Does that mean I still don’t get to play my video game?” Ah yes, typical kid. Regardless, his demeanor changed. There was a lot less arguing, much less meanness and a whole lot more willingness to cooperate. Amazing the power of a hug.
Please accept this blog as my virtual hug to you.