1 New Hug (I am sure there were more, but my brain has been in a kind of fog lately) 1 waiter at Tobacco Road
Over the past 5 or so days I have been a big old mess. Here, this example should tell you just how much of a mess I am. Saturday morning I was feeling down. As I was talking with my girlfriend (the one with the 1 1/2 year old beauty) she decided to cheer me up by telling me she dressed her daughter in skinny jeans. The thought of this was just so precious I began to cry before she could even finish telling me how she looked. I have been a MESS!
These are the moments I wonder, “Does Deepak Chopra have a bad day? What about Oprah? Do these type of positive, uplifting people ever want to put a hex on other people’s houses?” Because let me tell you, at times I do. This is a side of me that I am always so hesitant to share because it is so ugly. If I met myself during one of these times I am not someone I would choose to be friends with. Honestly, I am not sure why I am telling you all this. Maybe sharing is a way that I can release myself from the embarrassment and shame of feeling this way. Maybe I am hoping that some of you can relate and share your own stories so that I won’t feel so alone. Maybe I am just looking for validation.
What I can tell you is that I am forever grateful to those who love me unconditionally. They know to see through the mess and pull out the good in me. They know that through it all I need laughter, hugs and compassion. Rather than turn their back on my ugliness, they accept my momentary hardness knowing their kindness will remind me of all that is good in this world.
Please accept this blog as my virtual hug to you.