2 New Hugs (2 waste disposal employees)
Someone once told me that they thought I thrived on drama. They didn’t think I would be happy without some kind of drama and chaos in my life. As much as I hated to admit it, I think they were right (it’s that Leo sign in me). I have carried those words with me for years and tried to find peace and some sort of middle ground. Chaos can be fun, but it is stressful and your body doesn’t know the difference between “little” stress and “big” stress. So, what kind of harm has that been doing to my body all these years? I don’t know for sure, but I have suffered through my fair share of anxiety attacks and stress related headaches. Enough to know I have had enough.
I thought a year of hugs would bring me peace but in retrospect it brought me an incredible amount of joy and I spent an entire year “high” on life. It was amazing. It was necessary. I wouldn’t trade it for the world, but what I am finding now is that I am enjoying being settled in mediocrity. I am still hugging, but it’s not tied to a journey. It’s just me. It’s not bigger than life which is what it became through my blog. I am finding that even ground. I am finding that peace. I clean my house and it’s the most satisfying thing in the world. My highs aren’t quite as high as they were, but my lows aren’t quite as low as they got. I know this will change and I will go through an up and down stage of life once again but for now life is simple, peaceful, settled, and just good.
Please accept this blog as my virtual hug to you.