So, those of you that know me know that I keep one, two or maybe a dozen different blogs. I have many that I have started and barely wrote on. See, I thought I needed to keep all of the pieces of me separate. I thought, well, to attract followers I need to have a theme to my blog. So, I started one for hugs, one for photography, one for 30 day challenges, I am sure you see where I am going with that. I have just spent far too much time in my life worrying about what others think of me/my ideas/my thoughts/my actions. I just didn’t realize the extent to which I worried.
Almost one month ago I started a new 30 day challenge. I decided not to wear a bra anymore. Silly, huh? I thought so too. I didn’t really think much would come of it, I just thought, “Woah, this is totally going outside of my comfort zone but it might be fun to embrace my inner hippie.” And, the first few days were just that, fun! I laughed at myself every time I thought of the fact that my girls were swinging free. Then, the craziest thing happened. I began questioning decisions I was making. Was I making them because I wanted to or because it was something expected of me? They were such simple decisions that I never even knew I was consciously making them. For example, I sit at carpool for 30 minutes waiting for my oldest while my youngest sleeps. During that time I have always wanted to just get out of the car and sit in the grass while I was waiting. I never did because well, what would the other moms think? During this last month, when I heard that question bounce around in my head I remembered I wasn’t wearing a bra, laughed at my freedom and went ahead and sat in that grass. Not wearing a bra freed me from caring what others thought and let my own light shine.
I hear other women constantly tell me, “Oh, I could never do that.” All I want to do is shout at the top of my lungs, “FREE YOURSELF!” Maybe it’s not the bra holding you back. Maybe it’s something else, but we all have that invisible bond that we may not even be aware is there. Find it. Break it. Free yourself.
From this point on, I will have one blog. The theme? Well, it will be me.
Please accept this blog as my virtual hug to you.