What brings you joy? I mean true joy. Not the kind of joy you might feel participating in something that others told you you would enjoy. I mean the kind of joy that is yours and yours alone. The kind of joy that makes others look at you sideways and wonder how you ended up so crazy.
Sometimes it is that joy that brings us to our life’s purpose. At least, that is what I am hoping for. I have been finding new joys in my own life lately. It started with a new 30 day challenge. I meditate outside every day for at least 10-20 minutes. Usually it is at 6AM when the birds are singing their love songs and the breeze feels like a cool welcome to the day. That brings me joy. It reminds me that I am one with the world just as it is one with me.
This clears my mind which helps me to be present in the moment throughout the rest of the day. This has really helped to clarify what brings me joy and I have been pleasantly surprised. For well, 6 years now I have held on to the belief that having children meant I give up my identity to become “MOM”. This belief has caused me to look forward to a future where I can get back to me and find my true life’s purpose. At the same time I have tried living in the moment to enjoy the time with my kids while they are young. This really doesn’t work. I mean if I am thinking in the back of my mind that my kids are holding me back, how can I possibly ever be completely present with them without at least slightly resenting the fact that they are holding me back? So, I asked myself the hard question. Do I want to be home with my kids or do I want to be out there working on my life’s purpose? Giving myself the freedom to acknowledge and make that conscious choice freed me. It turns out that my life’s purpose is being a stay at home mom!
For now. We are ever evolving and our circumstances are constantly changing. I will not always be the stay at home mom. I do not have to give up looking for my life’s purpose while being a stay at home mom. It just means that my focus and attention is on being the best stay at home mom I can be. And, my kids have thrived since this decision was made. I am much more relaxed with my parenting abilities. This relaxes them and they use much better behaviors. I mean, they don’t have to act out for my attention anymore. I guess this is why I haven’t been blogging as often. And you know what? I am ok with that.
Being a mom is my joy. Being a barefoot, braless, meditating hippie is my joy. Having morning dance parties with my kids is my joy. So You Think You Can Dance is my joy. Knowing my limitations and acting on them even if it means giving up a beloved pet or not attending a baseball game with my hubby and kids is my joy. Living free is my joy. What is yours?
Please accept this blog as my virtual hug to you.